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tomorrow is the first day of schoool!! i just did some shopping for clothes. i didn't make volleyball. i really don't care that much. it gives me so much time to do everything. like driver's ed, and going on vacation and all that good stuff. so the last day of summer i'm spending working 3-7. awesome. well the only thing awesome about it is that i can buy my new shoes with the money i'm making just today. which is pretty awesome. i've done so much this summer. we went into the city like 3 times. i just recently saw hairspray with my mom, and my dad is going to take me in to see bodies. i got my braces off, and i think i'm done with all of that crap (expect for getting a new retainer). i wear my glasses more often (or atleast try to) because it really helps when i do, and i'm going to the eye doctor tomorrow. i've had a pretty good summer overall. there are people i haven't seen all summer that i said we'd hang out. but i don't have any regrets. i feel a lot more confident this year. i don't know what it is, but somehow i'm excited for school to start. i'm in symphonic this year, and i haven't played my flute since i got my braces off. i actually have only played once this summer =/. anyway, working two jobs was pretty awesome this summer. and i really miss camp (i had a dream about camp, and it was like the last day, and i almost cried).so that's summer. and it's over.
so this has/will be like the best weeeeek. saturday i went to warped with alex. met up with christina x2, amy, tyler and christina's new alex, and alycia, dan and chelsea. had alot of fun. camp has been really funn. today the firemen came to camp and brought two firetrucks and showed the kids, and then for about like 15 minutes, they just sprayed the water into the air and everyone ran around in it. the parkinglot was covered in water. i was drenched. i don't think anyone stayed dry. but it was so much fun and the kids really loved seeing their councelers getting wet and having some fun. then mr. softee came and everyone got ice cream. so i got my permit today, finally. i just never ttook the test. my birthday's in may. hahhaha. so i haven't driven yet, but good news, i can reach the pedals!@!# haha my mom's beeen saying that forever. and i can reach, even when the seat is adjusted for her. hopefully i'm going to go driving with my mom or dad tonight once catherine gets home. btw, the picture they took of me is the worst i have ever seen. it isn't me, i swear. loll. so thursday i'm not going to camp because i'm getting my braces off!#$%^&*, finalllllllllllllllllllllllyyyyyyyyyyyy =D i feel like i've had them forever and i was never getting them off. it still doesn't seem realll. and friday is the last day of camp! it's rediculous. it went by soo fastttt. friday is the talent show, and one of the kids michael does some "breakdancing" and some belly dancing during the group's routine. haha. best. so kim's in california with her sister for like a week, she left yesterday and gets back sunday i think. she just got back from camping on saturday. i feel like i've done so much this summer, and at the same time, i've like done nothing. but projekt revolution with vanessa is coming up next week. i'm so exciteddddd!#@#@#
so yesterday was kim's bbq. mad drama. danielle has a boyfriend now =] i'm happy for her. christina's grandma is dying, and i'm praying for both of them, and i wish them luck? idk. i feel terriblee. more drama with kim/sam/jared/rob. everyone was texting each other at the party. it was fun though. kim's going to indiana tomorrow. i'm going to miss her. but we went shopping today, and saw the plain white t's at the mall. it's was awesome. technically i think that was my first concert. i'm going to die at warped. i can't wait. i bought a cute shirt at forever21. everyone was at the mall. my fake tooth broke off, again. the same one too. my grammy (meaning aunt evelyn) bought me snowcaps and funny bones (again) for my second surgery. a little delayed, but if they got them for me like on monday, i probably would have eaten them and regreted it. so this is better. i'm getting my stitches out tomorrow, hopefully. i've had sucha better recovery this time than last time, thankfully. (idk if that even made sense, lol) assuming my stitches come out tomorrow, i go back to work tuesday. alex is coming home tonight, i missed him so much. i haven't even talked to him. anyway, so that was my fun past two days. later.
so yesterday i was feeling alot better. i showered, and i went out with my dad to get dinner (quiznos) and then i went to tim's. i haven't seen him since last july. that was cool. hung out, got more bug bites, walked to ralph's. we all got shakes (except for tim) and didn't have to pay for it. they forgot to have us pay, or like thought we already did, and we left. alex and tim went swimming, and kim and i hung out on the beach chairs because we can't go swimming. i got to sleep in my own bed last night =] i'm in a good mood. and i want to do something today. whatever. i just watched little black book. it was cutee. so i'm still on my couch though. maybe more updating coming. idkk.
so i neverrrrrr update anymore. i'm not really sure why. i just don't think my life is worth telling to the whole world (meaning like val and somedays chris) lol. no one besides those two read, and i thank you two very much. so anyway, i had surgery, again. haha it went well, and i haven't had any reactions to the medications they gave me this time =]. happy about thatt. i've wated about 13-14 movies in 3 days. i've been living on my couch, and even though it reclines and has heat and massage, it really isn't THAT comfortable to sleep on. i get a stiff neck and my legs hurt from it. idk why. but that's probably not the couch's fault, it's probably just because i can only sleep on on side. i feel disguisting because i'm still in the same clothes that i wore to the doctor's office monday morning. i feel a little less gross because i have gotten to wash my face with these wipe things my sister got for me =]. alex came over and i missed him soso muchh. he was really worried about me <333 we had fun, ofcourse, watched movies. i'm about to watch another movie now, and my dad's getting me breakfast. i'm going to the dentist today for him to give us the okayy to get my braces off =]. tim's in smithtown, so hopefully i'll get to see him. everything important is happening this week, and i don't know if i can do anything. kim's going away, having a party, harry potter came out yesterday. on the way home from the doctor's office, i got a mocha frapp =]]]. my mom's like "suree, how often do you have surgeryy?" and my dad's like "every couple of weeks at this ratee" haha it was really funny. i MIGHT have the surgery again next year, but that would be by choice incase the hair doesn't grow back in. we'll see then. anyway, i'm in a good mood. and i'm about to watch uptown girls.
hahah. i had cramps before, and the painkillers took the cramps awayy. ahahah =]]
so i've had a pretty awesome week. sorry if i leave anything out. i'll go day by day. starting saturday. i've had pizza almost every day.
Saturday: went to the park and then starbucks with kim, and then walked over to the bowling alley to meet up with alex and rob. sam and stopsky showed up later. so we bowled, and ate dinner there (pizza) and then everyone except sam and rob came back to my house.
Sunday: worked like 7 hours. nice =] had pizza for lunch on my break. then went the movies with vanessa to see fantastic 4, then walked to solo mio (sp?) and had pizza for dinner. went back to my house and watched bruce almighty. lotsafun.
Monday: went to kim's, watched the new episode of hannah montana and painted kim's nails [made them all pretty]. then we "went swimming" meaning we just sat on the edge with out legs in the water and listened to music. sunbathed. we were supposed to go to sam's baseball game but it got cancelled. then kim got her haircut in her backyard. we were going to go bikeriding like 'old times, but we were invited to a party at stopsky's (going away party) so we went over there with alex and everyone from camp and hung out in his hot tube/ heated poool. i'm gonna miss him.
Tuesday: went to the city with my parents and vanessa. ate at carmines, then went to top of the rock. saw curtains the musical with was reallly funn. got david hyde pierce's signature on my playbill after the show. then had dessert at the startdust diner, it's very 50's and everyone sings and stuff. bought the coolest spraypaint art on the street. we watched the guy make it right there. he was soo talented, it was crazy. didn't get home until like 2AM and i didn't wake up the next morning until like 1:30. hahah.
Wednesday (june 27th): today was alex and my 1year, 11month anniversary <3333. went to work 3-7 then after i went to kim's, again. rob and sam were already there, and alex came later. hung out outside and then in the pool. but we were all freezing, so we got out. it was like terrential downpour, and thunder and lightening, so we decided to go inside. hung out in the basement. we all have to hang out again and make smores when it's not a thunder storm. lollllll =]
Thursday (today): work again 3-7, idk what after.
Kerry's in newyork, and in smithtown today i think. kim's planning on going to the beach with kerry and everyone on friday, very excited. kim's going away on saturday =[
i haven't updated in a whileeeeee. so today i took the global regents which was pretty easy. wayy easier than the AP test. i think alex is going to come over and we're going to like get lunch or something. lololoveeee <3 =]. yesterday was the english final, and matt came over (really late) with kim and steph. really fun. steph left for dinner, and kim stayed w/ matt and catherine had stasia and her friend kelly (from school) stay for dinner too. dinner was funn. then kim and i painted matt's toes, and feet. no tests tomorrow, but the spanish regents on friday.
so i had the procedure on weds went smoothly. on vicodin, on antibiotics 2throw ups later >off both now on tylonol still in some pain. after 3 days, i got to shower =] feeling clean watched about 10 movies. saw alex. everyone saw my rediculous hair. haha. it's hott anyway, alex is coming over a little later and we're makine smores =] peace<33
busy day again. ah, i just remembered i have to type up my english questions. i think i'm going back and forth between bullet form, and paragraph form. i went shopping, got the cutest bag. got like shoe insole things, voted with my mom for the budged, and got ralph's with catherine. i did the questions for macbeth, and then read catcher in the rye, which i actually am really enjoying. and if i had more time, i would read the notebook since i started reading it, and reading catcher made me remember how much i love reading interesting books. and how much i want to continue reading the notebook. i feel like when i'm older i'm going to read a lot of romance novels, because i seem to like that kindof stuff. usually it's the old women that can't get a date, but hopefully i don't fit into that category when i'm old. no, i won't. house is on at 9 =] excited for that. and i stil have to type up the english macbeth questions (yeah, i say it like i would have typed them up while writing this entry. ha) i also realized, while typing this, that i'm actually a really good typer, like mad fast. i love it. i haven't looked at the keyboard once since i started writing. i have to finish my homework before 9, but i'm going to shower in the morning. maybe i'll do my hair since i haven't done it in like a week. i'm lazy in the morning, which isn't good. and people are IMing me. i'm usually not this ADD while writing entries. i need to buy new shoes, like summer shoes. white shoes. shoes i can wear with a cute skirt and feel pretty. i just reallized that i'm a little conceited. and i like it. i've never been conceited. and i still don't know if i'm spelling it right. and my foot fell asleep. but i like feeling good about myself.
my sweet sixteen is in 4 days, friday. my birthday/surgery is in 8 days, weds. i'm still not completely done.
recap of today, since it was crazy: school, ap test for the smart kids (not me) my ap euro class was actually the most fun class. there were like 10 kids there and we all just chilled, and talked. the lights like went out in the school. lights were like all trippy. and the G tower stair lights completely out. left early (right before 9th period) went to the orthodontist for like a minute. not going back until like may 21st i think. which i actually next monday. went over to the dj place, gave them everything. got more praise for the amazing job i did on the montage- all by myself. yeah. went to the nail place and got my eyebrows done. ran to ac moore to get like sign-in stuff. called the caterers, gave them the headcount and stuff. gave them all of our orders, stuff like that. worked more on my table settings. i think i got them figured out. called chris, since it's his birthday. that was cool+fun happy birthday, chris, biff! did homework . talked to EVERYONE online, which never happens.
i can't believe how much stuff i got done before like 5. geeze. 24's on tonight. i can't wait for grey's.
from tyler. but i need to get away from AP euro for a minute. so, convessions thing. you can take if you want too. idon'tcare.
The Confessions Game -- Think of 25 people and write something to each of them. Don't give any names. These are LIKED and HATED people. Never talk about it again.
1. you have like PMS 24/7. 2. i wish we talked more 3. you're so clingy 4. suchaa bitchhhhh!! 5. i don't like your hair 6. you're soo sweet 7. i wish i saw you more 8.i'm soo glad we've become friends. 9.sometimes you're obnoxious. 10. i really really love youu alott. 11. you really smell bad 12. we were such good friends. 13. you're really selfish. 14.i hope we become better friends. 15. i miss you so much, and i'm not trying to replace you. 16. diy 17. ihm 18. you've changed so much. 19. i wish you lived closer 20. i really resent you. 21.you're hilarious. 22.you're quietness makes me uncomfortable. 23.i love you, but you can be obnoxious. 24. you're really cool, but clingy, and touchy feely. 25. i wish we became friends sooner.
today was pretty productive, i have to say. i did almost all of my candles- speeches & songs. i did my montage for like the 40th time because it kept freezing. i did all of my homework. i'm going to actually open my AP review book. 24's on tonight.
tomorrow i have an appointment w/ my dentist =]] so we can decide when he's going to do all of the molds and stuff. so that i can get my braces off =]]] i'm getting my braces off!!!!!!!!!!!!! probably not before my sweet sixteen, which sucks. but whatever. at least i'm ggeting them off soon. catherine's seeing brand new, and i'm so jealous. i can't belive the AP test is friday. idk what to like study. i really don't know anything, andi never did i like failed the whole year. dsjfdjsklfjdkslf.
i swear to god i'm bipolar. i just went to the orthodontist. and he's like "we can take your braces off whenever" but it's hectic. hate may. birthday, sweet sixteen, AP test, surgery, parade. dkdjkslfs. and what's annoying, is i need to get this like retainer but it's not like the usual ones he said it's like invisilign that i'll have until i get my real teeth. which takes like 2 weeks. so my mom wants to wait until like 2 days until my surgery because i'm going to be missing school anyway. andi like can't eat with the invisilign thing in. idkk. i like couldn't even be excited because i was too upset that i have to wait longer. i almost had the change to get them off before my sweet sixteen. gone. dlkjfdjfkdls.
vollyeballl tonight, and i sortof don't want to go. but i am, becuase it's the first game. but i'm so bad, and i think i'm playing libero. and i don't think i'm good anymore. and i didn't even get libero practice last night. last night i played setter, which i hate, and suck at. ga. stress.
i haven't updated in like 2 weeks. not much has happened. my sweet sixteen is in like 2 weekss!! i made my songs like today. tomorrow i'll probably do my candle song list. then candle speechess. i'm so excitedddddddddd. seriously. 24's on tonight. i'm so excited. i need milk. i just had awesome chocolate =] haha. bye<3
so my puppy's gone =[ i miss her to death. it's so weird not having here there. it's so quiet. i don't like being home alone anymore. my mom want to get a bird. i don't like birds that much. i really just want my mitzi back. she was the best dog everr. that's my life. i'm hungry, even though i just ate. and i'm watching some judge show. idk. HOUSE tonight!! yeyyy. oh, now i have alergies?? wtff.
i'm really upset. we just got back from the vet. we're putting mitzi down on thursday. i didn't want to do it today. how ironic is it that my topic for the research paper was assisted suicide/euthanasia i couldn't hold it in. i started crying right there. i haven't really stopped since i started. and i know that i have homework to do, but i can't calm down. the vet said to give her candy and chocolate and crap. he said "what more could it do to her?" she's already dying. and she's lost 1pound in 2 weeks. that might not seem like alot, but it is when she only weighs 6 pounds. she usually weighed 9, when she was healthy & happy. now she weighs 6.5 she's all bony, and clearly isn't happy. i know it's for the best, but it doesn't make me feel anybetter. she's as old and i am, and i've had her most of my life. i love her. and i'm going to always remember her.
my life's busy. i started crying during dinner today. we were talking more about putting mitzi to sleep. possibly this weekend. i tried to keep it in. but it didn't work too well. i really love her. it's so upsetting seeing her not being able to eat. she doesn't bark. this is my "puppy" who's 16. this might be the last picture taken of her.
so for some reason i feel really stressed out. i had alot of homework tonight, which i probably could have done in like 2 hours, tops, but it took like like 5 total. idk. i wasn't fully concentrating. i couldn't. so much is on my mind. i'm in the middle of doing my math homework, and i keep thinking about what i'm going to write in my english paper, which we might not even have to write. in the back of my mind i'm flipping out because i don't know what any of my grades are for Euro. and i'm doing horriblyyyy.
in addition, Mitzi is getting worse everyday. my mom brought that up when she asked me about my research paper, which is about physician-assisted suicide. so i'm writing how it's wrong for doctors to give lethal injections, or drug medications intended to kill the paient. so my mom asks "well, do you think it's wrong to put mitzi to sleep" which i actually don't. because when you look in her eyes, she looks like she's about to cry. she doesn't look happy, and she hasn't barked in like 2 weeks. she won't eat dog food at all anymore. my mom's been making her meals. she makes her scrambled eggs, she gave her the chicken i was going to eat for dinner, and the left over stuffing. she won't eat. and she looks very confused why she can't eat.
so i might be having this "surgical procedure" it's called on my birthday? which turns out to be a very busy day. concert band nyssma, and the AP conference. and i might be missing both if cassera says it's not a big deal to miss it. scheduling this this is so annoying. surgical procedures are only on monday's and wed's!! ahh. it just sucks because my mom doesn't want me missing too much school, and i'm going to be out a day or two afterwards because he said i might be "uncomfortable" and memorial day is 2 days after my birthday.
so i need to finish my english outline, shower, then house at 9. thats it. kthanks for listening to all of my problems =]
so i woke up atound 7. completely freaked out from a dream that felt completely real. i just had a very long conversation with Stopsky about dreams. his are scarier i think.
pretty sure Alex is coming over. not sure why i'm updating. nothing has happened today. my dad's working on my old computer so that i can get all of the pictures from like middle school off of itt =]] and maybe some of my poems. only the good one's though. i had so many saved to that computer.
chris woke me up around 11. i got ready and showered and stuff. went to the movies to see blades of glory, then went bowling with Alex, Kim Chris, Chris's uncle, and his friend AJ? I'm still not sure how AJ knows chris's uncle. idk. his uncle's pretty cool though. he's like...5. hahah. bowling was fun. lowest score with bumpers won...pairs. so kim and i teamed up last minute, once we saw we had the lowest score =]]. we won: grandma/kiddie styleee.
Alex came over. cchilled for a little. then went to portjeff for like 2 minutes. we had to pick up catherine's car from the parking lot at the ferry. came home, had pizza and salad since it's friday. hungout a little more. had fun =] mitzi got some medication. hopefully she'll get better. it's hard watching her. she really looks like she's in pain. she doesn't look happy. it's upsetting.
just found out tonight that my aunts broke up/separated, like a year ago. no one told me.
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